When I left BlogHer '12 I didn't write for about 6 months. And I've yet to write regularly since then. Granted I am not blaming all of my lack of writing on my experience at BlogHer'12 - I did in fact have that 2nd child that I was pregnant with in 2012, I am still a stay at home mom (of two now!) so there isn't a lot of time, energy or mental capacity left for me at the end of the day. But I did feel very unworthy of the title "writer" when I left that conference and felt like I wasted my time (and money). I had expected to leave inspired and instead I felt disheartened.
When I learned that BlogHer '14 was going to be held in San Jose, California (my backyard essentially), and was soon after invited to attend with my dear friend Kim (the one good thing to come out of BlogHer '12); I was hesitant to say the least but figured I would give it another go and at the very least I would get a weekend away from my Stay At Home Mom life. Score!
In the weeks and days leading up to BlogHer '14 I could tell things were going to be different. Mainly because I was more unprepared for this conference than I'd ever been for anything in my life. I was throwing outfits in suitcases at 11pm the night before I was to wake up and hit to road, I was sifting through old files looking for business cards that were 2 years old, and I was definitely NOT memorizing an elevator speech. I think my reasoning behind the lack of prep was that if being so prepared 2 years ago had gotten me nowhere what harm could be done by having nothing prepared?
As I walked in to the main breakfast on Day 1 of BlogHer '14 I could already tell that I had a different mindset about the conference as a whole. Instead of feeling like an impostor who had snuck her way in, I knew that I had just as much of a right to be there as anyone else (and my Visa statement was my proof!). Instead of cowering at the back, finding the least occupied table, I found one closer to the front that had two great ladies already sitting (Meredith of http://www.pileofbabies.com/ and her sister who was there for moral support). I was soon joined by my girls Kim (http://www.mamabythebay.com) and Liz (http://elizakinkz.com/). A bit later KC of CEO of the House and her daughter (CEO in training) came by and finally our table was complete with Micky Marie Morrison joining us. When people asked what I wrote about I didn't have something rehearsed to tell them I told them the truth; that I write about my life as a mom but that most times, I don't write at tall. I always ended my schpeel telling people that the purpose of my blog was to write about things going on in my life in such a way that it would connect with other moms out there. I would say that I wanted all mom's to know that they weren't alone in what they were experiencing. It was probably a better spoken and more authentic description of my blog than my rehearsed elevator speech from 2 years prior.
|Breakfast with my Bay Area girls! Liz and Kim (blog addresses above)|
|Enjoying the less hectic Expo|
|Taking part in the Goldie Blox Open House Suite|
Thanks to BlogHer '14 I really feel like I got my Mojo back. I feel like a writer again. And I hope that this post is the first of many to come.
I plan to be back for BlogHer '15, wherever it may be, and I hope I walk away feeling more inspired and fulfilled as I did this year.